CBD Oil and How it Has Helped Me


Just about a year ago I began really searching for a way to help control the pain and depression I deal with on a daily basis that wasn’t in pill form or prescribed by a doctor. I had gotten tired of feeling numb or foggy all day, this had an adverse effect on my quality of life. Taking something that made me feel like I was in a cloud and had me feeling like I wanted to stay in my bed 24/7 had gotten old and made the depression deeper.

I knew I couldn’t use the actual cannabis because the smoke hurts my lungs, burns my throat and caused me to cough until I cried. Besides, the good stuff is way too expensive, LOL! So, I started looking into CBD oil that could be used in various methods. At first, I thought I wanted to use it sublingually, but that stuff tastes nasty and IMO, defeats the purpose if you can’t get past or work through the taste of something that is supposed to help you. Yes, I know most “medicines” are going to be nasty tasting if they work. I’m a wimp and can’t even take Pepto cause I detest wintergreen flavor!

So, off to the interwebs I go and read everything I can find about CBD oil, NATURAL CBD oil, not the synthetic that causes so many problems and has actually made people here in our area sick enough to be hospitalized. Yes, sublingual CBD oil is hard to use cause it’s thick and has an aftertaste that can linger no matter what you drink to wash it out with, LOL! Some brands do offer a flavored option, but the ones I tried didn’t mask the nastiness enough for me.

My daughter has been trying for a while to quit smoking and has tried almost everything imaginable to help her, no cold turkey is NOT an option! So, her BFF (my daughter from another mother) who is the manager for one of the most popular vape stores in Tucson got her hooked up with vaping. Yes, I know there are articles that say vaping is just as bad as smoking and there are others that say it’s much safer. When the BFF was here last year we went to a few of our local vape shops and she asked a SHITTON of questions trying to find out which ones actually knew their products and their business.

In the one she felt knew things the best, I began asking questions about the CBD oil they carry, and they have a wide variety of different brands and different flavors. Once I had asked all the questions I felt were pertinent for making my decision, I decided to try Koi Brand CBD oil for vaping. A starter kit vape purchased, the 250mg blue raspberry dragon fruit flavor is added and off I go. I’m good with the flavor, it’s not overpowering, the vaping doesn’t burn my throat, cause my lungs to rebel or make me cough til my head explodes and the effects of the CBD is better than I had hoped for.

There is no groggy feeling, there is nothing to make me feel drowsy or sleepy or give me the munchies like smoking the actual cannabis plant did. There are no adverse effects that would make me impaired to drive or operate heavy machinery, LOL! Using CBD oil (with NO THC) is it is legal in all 50 states and you don’t need to have a medical marijuana card to buy it. The best part, at least for me, is that I have noticed a huge reduction in the anxiety and depression I was taking prescribed meds for, my pain level has been reduced to more than simply manageable AND my sleep habits have improved to where I do not need to take even an over the counter sleep aid most nights.

After using the flavored Koi for a few months, I found I could buy “juice” in a wide variety of flavors with no nicotine that I could add to the unflavored option Koi offers. Once that window opened I found OH SO MANY different combinations and just like going to pick an ice cream, the only thing that limits you is the store you choose to shop at, LOL! It also helps that my daughter from another mother sends us (remember I said my daughter is vaping too?) juices from Arizona and helps to keep us informed of what’s new.

Here I am almost a year from the time I started and I’m feeling great, I’m so thankful I found CBD oil and began vaping. IMO this is the greatest thing to happen since sliced bread! Especially now, since I found my most favorite juice to add to the flavorless … Lemon Twist E-Liquid Pink Punch Lemonade

That’s all for this time!





It’s Been More Than A Month


… since I’ve written anything here, however in my defense, I’ve been away from home and the computer for 3 weeks of that time period.

Traveling around the country in the big ass truck with my husband gave me a much needed time away from all the things that had weighed me down and made me not want to write. Now that I’m home again, I’ve got a lot I want to say, but you are going to need to be patient just a little bit longer. The Little Witch is out of school for her Spring Break next week and she will be spending the days with Abi (that’s me, LOL) doing all kinds of things I hope will make her happy and keep that big smile on her face.

So, hopefully, the week of April 8th will find me once again writing and sharing the things that make my world go round. Until then, be safe, hug your loved ones and watch for those Blessings, both Dark & Light


I’m Still Here


Yes, I am still here and even though I haven’t written anything in over a month, I am still alive and well. Like many people I too have personal issues I deal with on a daily basis and often times those things keep me from writing here on the blog. Luckily, the things I’m going through aren’t negative or depressing. Well, except for the latest school shooting and all the fallout from the idiots over that. AND today I found out our Little Witch will have a Code Red lockdown drill on Thursday.

I remember going to school and not having to worry about being in danger or afraid of someone coming into my school with a gun and shooting up the place. Now, it seems it is commonplace for every student in every school to have the added worry of their safety instead of focusing on the things they are supposed to be learning. The Little Witch is petrified! She brought home the notice yesterday and after her mom discussed the drill with her, she didn’t sleep well last night and will be anxious and fearful until after the drill is over. She also doesn’t like the fire drills they regularly have but has gotten to the point she doesn’t cry when they happen.

So, here I am staying mostly offline and doing things around my house that not only make me happy, contribute to the serenity of the home, but also bring me peace during the outside turbulence. No, I’m not hiding under a rock. I am fully aware and informed of what is happening not only in the world around me but also in our little town of Hope Mills, NC., across the country and around the world.

A few weeks ago a friend introduced me to Traveler’s Notebooks and Planners. Like I wrote previously, I’ve repurposed a couple planners I had bought what seems like forever ago, AND this same friend generously gifted me with a beautiful leather Traveler’s Notebook that part of me is hesitant to use, simply because it is SO beautiful and I’m afraid I’ll mess it up, LOL! I’ve been constructing my own version of a Traveler’s Notebook and the inserts used in them and leaving that gorgeous purple leather in its place of honor on my craft table … at least for now.

I’ve also found my way into the “rabbit hole” of “The Happy Planner” by Create 365. Yes, I have easily become obsessed with all things that can be related to their Happy Memory Keeping series, which in my mind is the new and improved way to scrapbook. I’ve been researching, digging, reading, watching YouTube videos on how to do this or that or any possible question that might come up. And I’ve pretty much decided that when the new planners from Create 365 are released next month I will become the very proud owner of one of the ones in the Big Happy Planner series. Well … at least I’m going to go check them out once they hit the stores. I need to actually touch and feel things before I buy them.

Yes, I’m still here, alive and happy and enjoying the time I’ve spent away from social media and most things related to the stupidity that is running rampant. I’ll be over here playing with my paper crafting, spending time outside with my plants that are coming back after the cold weather and loving my life. If you want to reach me, most of you already know how to do that 🙂





Can Money Buy You Happiness


A few weeks ago this question was asked as a blog prompt. I didn’t answer it then because I wasn’t in the frame of mind to be objective. At the time, Jimmy was out of work and our bills were so far behind, I didn’t think we’d ever see the light a the end of the tunnel again. At that time I would have replied with a very loud YES! Today, I can give you my honest answer when asked: “Can money buy you happiness”?

No, I do not believe money can buy happiness. I DO believe money can alleviate stress and anxiety which in turn can cause a feeling of happiness.

When you don’t have a steady income and you can’t pay your bills or buy food for your family to eat or pay the rent, it’s easy to fall into a deep depression. This depression can cause anxiety and panic attacks, which manifest in me as the need to stay inside and not see anyone. I can’t do face to face interaction. I sleep a lot and barely eat. Mostly my mind works overtime to find a solution for the problem.

Most times the only solution is to dramatically change your circumstance, which we did.

Jimmy went back to work driving over the road. And while it is not the ideal situation for any of us, the pay is good (usually) and we once again have good insurance benefits. He will have his first paycheck today.

This means I can begin to catch up on the things we fell behind in. I can once again build up the savings account. And those things that the Little Witch has been asking for can now become a reality.

I could keep adding to the list, but there isn’t any reason to. The most important things are going to be taken care of.

So, can money buy you happiness? No, I don’t think it can. But money can give you peace of mind. And having peace of mind can bring you happiness. And I think happiness makes life so much easier.





Social Media Silence


For the past few months once a week on any given random day, I make it a point to stay away from all my social media accounts. That means no Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, Pinterest …nothing. I do check email and I also keep text messages and Facebook messenger open simply because I have family and friends that use those formats for communication.

At first, I was worried I wouldn’t be able to stay away from my addiction. I mean, come on! I’m always watching the news tickers and reading up on a lot of different subjects. I’m also pretty snarky when I find something online that just makes my teeth itch. But, honestly? The first day was easier than I thought and now, I actually look forward to the time I spend away from social media. Yes, I could just shut it down and walk away completely … but the fact is I don’t want to. I want to know what’s going on in the world and whether you want to admit it or not, Facebook has become an element for finding out about things.

I live in a small town, our newspaper is mostly local or county coverage. Yes, I “could” subscribe to the more mainstream papers, but I can read most of them for free online. And often times, one of the people on my Facebook friends’ list will post an article from the area where they live and I’d never know about something that they consider important. At any rate, I’m not ready to completely give up on social media just yet.

However, on the days I’m away from the computer, I find all sorts of things to get into here at home. Yesterday, I dug out some of the old journals and planners I have either started and not finished or simply forgotten I had them until we move this last time and I found them in a box. I spent most of the day tearing some of them apart and then using the pages I deemed worthy, began reconstructing my version of a Traveler’s Notebook. This is a work in progress and I didn’t get as far along as I wanted before I needed to clean things up and get the Little Witch off the bus after school. I ended up gluing some pages and waiting for the glue to dry is not one of my favorite things to do. Yes, I am impatient, we all know that!

Once I get things together as I want and I put them in the actual cover (mine is about 4.75 wide by 8.25 tall), I’ll have 5 small notebooks held in place by elastic bands and will have a place for washi tape, a 6-inch ruler, some clips and a few pens. I also took one of those notepads you find at the dollar store that hangs on the refrigerator via a magnet, removed the magnet and then using rubber cement, I glued it to the back inner cover so I have a designated place to jot down a quick note or keep my shopping list from disappearing before grocery day.

Each individual notebook has 20 sheets of paper sewn together and folded to give 40 pages and covered in cardstock. Some of the inner pages of the ones I have had already been written on but there were more blank pages than used, so I trimmed some other paper I had and then glued that over the used sheets. I also redid the cover on a couple of the smaller notebooks to cover up the wear and tear and scribbles from their previous life.

I’m actually quite excited for the finished project. My version of a Traveler’s Notebook will hold everything I think is necessary for my daily life and still fit into my purse without adding too much extra weight.