May 23 2014
I have this friend I dearly love. Even though I have never met her in person, she holds a very special place in my heart. And like most people who value their friendships, I worry about those I love. This one in particular is someone many folks look up to, she is friendly, outgoing, caring, giving and above all trusts easily. This is where my concern comes in. No she’s not into self harm, unless you consider allowing yourself to be led around like a puppy to be self harm. She used to be strong, she used to be independent. I don’t know what happened, but one day I woke up and she was still there, but gone just the same.
As each day passes I can see her being drawn deeper into the abyss. So many of us have spoken to her about our concerns, and she swears she is aware, but continues to bury deeper into the muck. I want to rush to her rescue and try to prevent the pain I went through, the pain many others have gone through. But I can’t. You see, she has the gift of free will and I must allow her to play this out in her own time. Her sisters and I have made a pact, we WILL be there to pick her up and hold her gently when she is thrown out with the trash.
Why do I say she will be discarded with no thought?? Because, her sisters and I have already been where she is now. We’ve all been tossed aside once we found our voice and finally stood up for ourselves and refused to be bullied any longer. Her fall is coming sooner than she may imagine, and it’s not going to be voluntary … she is going to be used and abused and then left to rot.
While I sit by knowing this is happening, I’m holding her up to the Goddess every day, asking for strength for my friend, and comfort when she falls. I along with many light candles and pray she isn’t hurt too deeply … sometimes I despise experience.