Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Thoughts on a Tuesday Morning... Warning! It's turned into a Rant...

There have been a few changes in my life in the past couple days and it got me to really thinking about things and examining my inner self. I am a work in progress, my changes happen on a daily basis, and sometimes it takes a bit for me to catch up and understand them. I'm not perfect and in no way do I try to portray that I am. I'm full of misgivings that keep me constantly searching for answers. Some I've found, others manifest as I need them.

I've consciously made an effort this week to take time every day to ground. When I was doing this on a regular basis, my world didn't get out of kilter so quickly. I could focus more and be a positive and progressive addition to my family, friends and the world around me. I've changed the amount of time I spend on Facebook, and I've been reading more... books from some of my favorite Pagan authors.

Currently, I'm working through The Inner Temple of Witchcraft by Christopher Penczak with my group of friends. We don't all live in the same area, so we have a FB group setup and when they get together if some can't attend we are hoping to be able to either have a * conference call* with someones cell phone, use G+ Hangout, or possibly even Skype. I'm happy Amanda thought of this. I honestly miss my Sisters and *need* to have this time with them.

I also have a book called Journey to the Dark Goddess: How to Return to Your Soul by Jane Merideth. I haven't really gotten into this one, it's the book I was asked to write a review for. And when I received the book from the publisher there was a note in the packaging that said if I couldn't give the book a 4 or 5 star rating to not bother writing the review. This bothered me, and as a result I haven't been able to get into it. It's a shame to because it talks about working with Persephone, Inanna, Psyche, Hecate, Ereshkigal, Kali, Morgana and Lilith. And since Persephone and Lilith are 2 of my Patron Goddesses, I'd like to know more about them and how to work with them...

OH!! The other day I was accused of cramming my beliefs down someone's throat...Hrmmm. Is this what I do? I don't think so...

I will admit I am a passionate person and I stand up for my beliefs, I am loud, I am proud and I will fight to my last breath for something I believe in. I had my head buried in the sand for such a long time and now that I am more aware of my surroundings, I strive to keep myself educated on the things that are going on in the world around me.

When I lived in Arizona, it was like I was in a cloud all the time and followed along with what my family and friends believed. I was one of those *sheople* people I talk about. You know, those people who blindly follow and believe everything they are told without trying to see if there is more to the story. For 45 years I was like that, I followed my father, my family, my husband (which ever one it was at the time, LOL). I was a dyed in the wool Republican *GASP* and would have never thought of not voting a straight party ticket. Now that I'v moved away and opened not only my eyes, but my heart and mind I gotta ask... What the hell is it with the people who live in AZ? If you look at some of the news reports coming out of there, it makes me really wonder how they live with their conscience. The most recent thing I found is there is the lawmakers there have KILLED the Anti Bullying Law. WHY?? WTF are these people thinking?? The person taking credit for getting this law overturned is Cathi Herrod, who convinced everyone the law only protected Gay children... Are you kidding me?? And the people of AZ are OK with this... The people of Arizona have lost their self respect and their humanity will be the next to go.

Someone made a comment to me the other day about how they are done with the Pagan community because all we do is bicker and bash Christians and that it seems all the people they know who are either Gay or Bisexual are Pagan and that Paganism gives everyone a free pass to be morally bankrupt. Again I ask...WTF?? This person was trying to figure out their spiritual path and thought that Wicca fit them OK. Never mind that they knew absolutely nothing about the Pagan/Wiccan culture or would even take the time to do any research on it. I guess it just sounded cool to call themselves Wiccan... they have decided that being Wiccan is no longer their cup of tea. OK, I can live with that, but when you describe yourself as a spiritual person who honors each persons choice and the path they choose to walk AFTER you have just said that being Gay is a choice and Pagans are morally bankrupt, it makes me wonder just exactly who you are trying to fool. My guess is this person has absolutely no idea who or what they believe and just goes along with who ever they happen to be friends with at the moment.

This brings me to the next thing that is on my mind, and yes, it's pretty much a repeat of a previous post. However, it seems that some people just don't get it. I'm talking about my Facebook page. Here are the rules once again:

1) My Facebook is MY page

2) I say what I want on MY page

3) If you don't like what I have to say, either ignore my posts or delete me. I don't care either way.

4) DO NOT try to dictate to me what I can post on MY page. I would never try to tell you what content you can put on your page, so extend me the same courtesy.

5) If you choose to engage in a discussion on MY page be respectful, otherwise your comments will be removed from the discussion. If you continue to be disrespectful, I will delete you. No questions asked.

I hope this is the last time I need to post this reminder, but I doubt it. Why?? Because I'm vocal, I'm obnoxious, I post controversial things on my page and not every one agrees with me. That's OK too, if everyone agrees with the other person it makes for a very boring existence.

I have so much more I want to write about and to get out of my system, but I need to get things in order for Ravyn. She'll be here somewhere around 2:30 and my time online is limited to when she takes a nap or goes to sleep for the night. I love taking care of her...she's grown so much and changes daily. Thank you Jimmy for taking a less than desirable job (that has turned into one you really like) that pays enough so I can stay home with Ravyn.

So I'm gone for now... tomorrow is another day!