Thursday, July 4, 2013

To the One Who Holds My Heart

I know there are many people who say I will never forget that day, that time, that occurrence... and all of their memories are important. Today I have one of those moments and in my mind it's a very important remembrance.

When you walked into my life, I was completely unprepared for the changes you were going to bring. I was in the process (unknown to me at the time) of walking away from a nasty horrible marriage, one that had become so stale, the most excitement we had was driving 2 hours from Phoenix to Tucson to spend the weekend with the in-laws. I hated everything about my life .

But now I know you and I are connected in such a way that it goes beyond romance, beyond friendship, beyond what we've ever had before. It has defied time, distance, and multiple changes within ourselves and in our lives together. It has also defied every explanation, except one ~ purely and simply we are soul mates. I honestly can't explain it, I just feel it and know it to be true. The day I met you, I had no idea you were my soul mate, the one true love who has walked with me through many lifetimes. You were the first person in this life who took the time to look deep into the *me* and see not only who I was and should be, but you also helped me to walk that very frightening path to self discovery.

I feel our connection manifest every time my spirit lifts when we talk, how the sound of your voice brings me peace in a way I've never known before. It's in the way we laugh at the same things and how just one look from you can mean so much. When I'm with you, it's like the tiniest piece of the universe shifts into the exact spot it is supposed to be and then all is right in the world. My heart still skips a beat each time I see you after we have been apart while you are working.

A love like ours happens once in a lifetime. You were the one who was everything I had ever dreamed of, the one I thought only existed in my imagination. When you came into my life, I realized the things I thought were happiness would never compare to the joy loving you has given me. You are a part of everything I think, do and feel and with you by my side I completely believe anything is possible.

Whether we are in each other's arms or on the other end of a phone call, knowing you are such a huge part of my life makes everything better. You give me a wonderful, deep down to my core feeling of happiness that I have never had before. That feeling keeps me going, keeps me smiling inside, even when we are apart. You are on my mind and in my heart every minute of every day, and I wouldn't change that for anything. You are the center of so many things I do and feel and care about.

I want you to know that loving you has spoiled me forever. The relationship we have together feels so right that I sometimes find myself smiling for no reason at all. It's an amazing feeling to be in a relationship with someone who is so tuned into my moods, someone I don't always have to explain how I'm feeling or what's going on. It feels so good to know that you really do accept and love me for who I am.

I am so blessed to have you as my husband, my best friend, my lover and my confidant. These things and so many more have made me understand that ours is a once in a lifetime, forever connection. Our kind of chemistry comes along only once, and I know that I could never love another as much as I love you. I give to you my love and my hand for you are my beloved and the keeper of my heart.

Each time I see fireworks, I will always remember sitting on the patio deck of La Casa Vieja in Tempe, Arizona on July 4, 2001 and you turning to me and telling me you loved me. I loved you then, and I love you even more today. Happy Anniversary, my love. Here's to many, many more!!