Tuesday, August 6, 2013

New Day... New Attitude

Morning Everyone! And Happy Tuesday to you all!

When I woke up this morning I made a conscious decision to make the best of each and every day. I'm not going to promise each day will be full of sunshine and rainbows, because you all know I have a temper, love to rant and some days just need to be utilized for snarkiness. I did begin today with Day 2 of the Oprah & Deepak 21 Day Meditation Challenge. I have already participated in this challenge 3 times & each time I finish the challenge, I find a new and different perspective to my world.

I've also re-examined my personal goals for my family, education and spiritual life and found I had been detoured from the steps I set down to achieve those goals. As of this morning's meditation I am please to say I am back on track. I will be working daily with my spiritual mentor to maintain the balance of my higher self so as to keep my feet firmly planted on this track to bigger and better things for my life.

In the past few weeks I have been reminded that I have many friends and family members who for one reason or another have developed some pretty debilitating diseases or medical conditions. One cousin by marriage has had a re-occurrence of cancer, one daughter suffers from Chiari Malformation and  fybromyalgia (this is not a new diagnosis), the other has hyperthyroid disease (again, not a new diagnosis) and is trying to schedule an appointment to test for Grave's disease, and a close personal friend has just recently been diagnosed with Stage 1 Multiple Sclerosis.

This made me stop and examine the things I do in my personal life to see if I was on the fast track to developing some of the conditions running rampant in  my biological family. And it's not a pretty picture. Both my parents were diabetic, both had high blood pressure, and both were over weight for a large part of their lives. So far, I haven't been diagnosed with diabetes or high blood pressure, but I'm thinking if I don't make some changes I'll be right there in a few short years.

Again, these changes are going to be difficult for me to follow through on, I'm lazy when it comes to healthy eating and I do not like physical activity other than walking around my neighborhood or the mall (I've thought about joining the mall walkers over at Cross Creek Mall, but I haven't figured out how to do this with Ravyn, yet). Somewhere in all the mess I call my life I HAVE to find the drive and determination to get up off my butt and make some radical changes.

Also, the tone of the things I share here in the Lair will be changing. And if you find them too boring I will understand if you decide to stop following. Last night I had an epiphany... I do not need or want the numbers. I began this blog as an outlet for my depression and even though it's gone through many different phases of my life, the numbers were not important then and they are not important now. Just as I've reduced the number of people on my friends list on Facebook, the pages I *liked* and the number of people I follow on Twitter, I have also removed some of the blogs I followed at one time simply because they no longer interest me or fit in with the things I want for the future.

Plans have changed for the political themed blog I was going to begin writing, it's still there in the back of my brain, but the focus has shifted and for now Opinionated Pagan has been shelved. Once I manage to balance the things I'm already involved in, I'll reevaluate the desire to become politically active.

That's all the updates for today. I *plan* to write a bit each day, perhaps along the line of a daily journal type entry. And if *life* doesn't get in the way as it is known to do in my world, I'll be able to keep this commitment to myself.

Have a great Tuesday and be safe...


  1. On the topic of diabetes and high blood pressure I don't know your age but I know where you are coming from. I have some of these issues in my family tree as well and I myself had gestational diabetes in my pregnancies so my chances of getting these are pretty high. I'm awesome at exercise, but my problem is constantly falling off the wagon and back into my old habits and then having to claw my way back onto it. Good luck to you! <3

  2. Since I've already hit the pre-diabetic stage (diabetes on both sides of the family tree on top of it) and have been taking high blood pressure medicine for years, feel free to ask questions, compare notes, etc.

  3. Hi Chickie and congratulations for moving in new and positive directions! :) Since I had left Facebook, I have missed you and many others, but certainly feel much "saner" without the unnecessary anger, drama, repetitive nonsense that often gets me riled up there.

    I, too, suffer from Graves' Disease (with unilateral eye-bulging - now reduced some) and Thyroid issues (was destroyed via radio-iodine in 1999), Fibromylagia, etc. Not a fun ride, so I can sympathize with your family members.

    Anyway, I've been on a mission to "re-focus" and re-group as well. All the best in your endeavors and please do say hello to mutual friends for me. :) P.

  4. Hey Polly!!

    I've missed you too, and you may want to come back. I've removed almost 100 people from my friends list and my world there is MUCH more calm and peaceful. So I'm not sure who our mutual friends would be at this time.

    Anyhoo, happy to hear you are doing well on your personal quest for re-focusing. I think many people are doing this same thing...

  5. I thought I had left a comment on this post, but I must've made a mistake...

    I'm glad you're working on focusing on the nicer things in life (and on the not so nice ones that can make living a bit easier). My mom and dad are diabetics (and I'm paranoid) so I've been watchful of my sugar consumption and my weight ever since I read about the correlation between them.

    Stay bright... Oh, and you can't be boring even if you tried ;-)