Friday, January 12, 2018

Matrons? Patrons?


In my personal working with Deity, I have no particular Goddess or God that is exclusive to what I am hoping to accomplish. This is to say that depending on what the outcome I am seeking for the particular working depends on which Deity I call on. For more than a couple years I have found my comfort level to be higher when working with those of the Dark Goddess/Gods category and find the workings I do have a quicker and longer lasting manifestation than when I call upon those Deities who work better in the light.

For the longest time, I was afraid of my dark side, afraid of the unknown. I wasn't sure what being accepting of your dark side really meant until I had a deep and longer lasting trip through some inner soul searching while I was looking for answers to my self-imposed spirituality block. I had hit a brick wall, couldn't find my way out of a wet paper bag and found I MUST accept every aspect of me before I would be able to move on. Up until this time, I would call upon Brighid or Dianna or even Cerridwen when I wanted or felt I needed something. And I was always trying to keep to the Harm None rule or do nothing for self-gratification or gain.

About this time I developed an obsession for everything Lilith and Persephone. I had never worked with either of these Goddesses, but on more than one occasion they each presented themselves to me as my guide for the magic I was working. Once I became comfortable with the initial experience, I was able to open my mind and heart completely and welcome the lessons I was learning. After Lilith and Persephone came Hecate, Hathor, and Ariadne. Each of these Goddesses came to me for a specific lesson, but have stayed within my circle letting me know they are always there watching out for me.

Thankfully I have stopped fighting the darkness and have found the way of many of those who claim Wicca for their spirituality does not resonate with me. Please understand, I am in NO way mocking or ridiculing their belief or their personal spirituality, it just does not work for me. I call myself Witch and do not fit under the umbrella of the Wiccan Rede nor do I believe in the karmic retribution so many people are quick to call out when they see something happening to someone who may have stepped on their toes.

Do I work with a particular Matron or Patron? Not really. I feel the call of more than one, I've been tapped on the shoulder and smacked up side the head on more than one instance when I wasn't paying attention to the whisperings coming my way. I honor the Dark Goddess in whichever form she manifests to me. I call on the one who will come to me in the time of need and help the spell as it needs to be made known. And I have learned to be still and listen for their voice as they call to me and watch for the signs they send to me. I still have Persephone, Lilith, and Hecate as my guiding forces, and within the last six months, I've also been called by The Morrighan. To say that I'm a child/daughter/priestess of any of these amazingly powerful forces would be a great honor. However, I like to believe they are all my Matron and they each are helping me to become the person they want me to be.



  1. I have gone through the same journey. Just relying upon the light side to make my faith seem more acceptable to the world at large just wasn’t cutting it. Then, the Morrigan came through when I was trying to formulate an oil to help with a client’s medical procedure scarring. I mean, who better than a battle goddess to take care of wounds. Now, some of the darker goddesses are definitely whom I look to when needed. Great post!

  2. It took me FOREVER to accept my dark side, I was so petrified I'd offend. Once I fully understood you have to walk in balance with both the dark & light I was able to release that fear and grow. And, right on with the battle Goddess and healing! Thanks for commenting! <3